Friday, May 28, 2010

I'm excited that I got into this class I need to take if I want to go to Med School ever. Now to get other things in order, songs recorded before all this, etc.

I thought I would quit dating because it is such a distraction from what I need to be doing a lot of the time, but I am going to hang in there and still be open to possibility for the rest of the summer. Once I am doing this hard stuff it's gotta be off-limits (I'll either be in a good relationship or no relationship), but I realized I would prefer to be in a partnership that could be helpful through challenges. I had been dating someone for the past 5 months or so but never very serious and it turns out that I learned some things (like how to remain extremely independent throughout a relationship), but all and all it's just another mess. At least I had some fun & wasn't too lonely all winter. Anything that happens in the future, I will be in a better place when it begins and therefore attract someone better and perpetuate better treatment of one another. I dedicate my breakup to Geoff, and I'm back to dating ghosts whenever I want.

from Geoff's livejournal, thanks Lil

[Aug. 6th, 2008|05:13




power - the greatest]
be alive is a beautiful thing. I want nothing more than to be more
alive and know everyone alive. I don't want to die anytime, but am
comforted that we all die, and that death will bring me that much closer
to life. I feel immensely gratified by the existence of myself, its
many forms and contacts.
Geoff, I am spending all this time with you right now that I haven't been doing enough of for quite some time, so feeling closer to you even though you are now gone. The distance made appreciation harder in this case because it was just given that every time I go home I will take the CAT bus to see you and have a wonderful time like we never missed a beat. I feel like you are being preserved and appreciated right now in a way that we are not capable of until we lose something. But THANK YOU, GOD, GEOFF for leaving us with so much to live by: for all your writing. And for all your wisdom and advice in life. I was thinking about you before and after I heard without even realizing the difference... Thinking of when you told me if you were dating someone that had a BBQ and didn't invite you you'd be quickly headed out the door, obviously, no second thoughts about it. And I was involved in this weird shit where my special-lover-friend did not show up on my Birthday (but at least he didn't die like you did, punk! At least I will think of you every birthday, think of the birthday you both made and ruined when we first met, watching the sun rise on the bleachers flirting with Kathy instead of me..dang!) and just thinking, "Geoff would think this is nuts. I should listen to Geoff." This didn't change because you were alive or not, you are just such a positive force, such a wise old man in such a young age.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

thoughts by Geoff Johnson, collected from facebook

Dear reader,

This is what I could find on facebook of the things my beloved friend Geoff wrote before he passed away. He is a smarty and great writer with a great wit so I hope that we will be able to collect more of his writing.

Blueberry Hill, your decor does not do your menu justice.
January 28 at 7:53pm

Really cool paint project:
Jan 29

History is just a bunch of short stories that Death reads for amusement.
January 29 at 9:03am

Wow! Haha, a 'see more' option. Facebook really knows romance.

I found my Valentines for 2010
Here is the list:
1):Sarah Christina Sherman
2):Christina Wallace
3):Jillayne Lowe Coy
4):Erin McNamara
5):Jennifer Higashi
See More

You wanna go anywhere you gotta put the whole boat in the water and not go with the waves. Steer that thing and get to that land for which only you can bring to the rest of us.
January 30 at 3:44pm

Man, seems everybody's been losing their phone. Must've been that moon last night.
January 30 at 10:15pm

They say people are getting smarter, but I bet more than half these people playing these arcades couldn't push a hoop with a stick.
January 31 at 2:12pm

Radioactive rats are like bullets in Medusa's skull, they only make the snakes angry.
February 1 at 6:42am

Because of the down spiral..........(add your own)
February 3 at 3:11pm

Geoff Johnson Because of the downward spiral, I turned on the car but didn't drive it.
February 3 at 3:11pm

Coffee may have usurped blood as most abundant bodily liquid.
February 4 at 10:17am

Move your tongue through the milk to nourish more than the body.
February 6 at 1:58pm

Our world may be a giant hologram - space - 15 January 2009 - New Scientist
Could our three dimensions be the ultimate cosmic illusion? A German detector is picking up a hint that we are all mere projections

Read a book a while, read another book for a while, then another, and another, then repeat.
February 6 at 6:29pm

Back for a bit, if only for a while.
February 9 at 5:40am

Problem: Classmate wrongly called servants in a story 'blackies'. Solution: Instructor wrote 'respectable mulattoes' on the white board.
February 9 at 4:23pm · Comment · Like

Jonathan Purtill why didn't he write it on the black board?
February 10 at 8:24pm

Geoff Johnson Because those were put in a separate room.
February 10 at 9:51pm

knife wielding solutions
February 10 at 7:40pm

Solar powered babies, all go to Hades, put em in water they'll froth like Cerberus with rabies.
February 11 at 10:27am

let letters lie
February 11 at 4:19pm


Don't judge the still beating heart
February 13 at 9:01am

Dreams were so insane last night I had to shave this morning just to have a point of reference.
February 14 at 7:48am

4 volcanoes in my chest, puts glow in my spirit, freshens the blood in this nest
February 14 at 10:04am

When Nuclear Rainbow dreams of skeleton skin, fingernails will have to be the new teeth.
February 15 at 11:34pm

Putting my world in the world with words
February 17 at 8:29pm

All ghosts have black hands.
February 17 at 10:09pm

I'm not working any angles baby, it's a pretty straight line I run.
February 20 at 11:41am

"No, I agree with you." "What's that supposed to mean."
February 21 at 11:16am

Sleep is a troubled pilot
February 22 at 6:50pm

When cats eat Friskies they are actually dropping acid:

Friskies Adventureland Commercial
Friskies Adventureland cat food commercial produced by Avrett Free Ginsberg
February 23 at 10:37am

Even with more teeth you'd want more teeth
February 23 at 10:57am

Don't go putting that dust you're kicking off yourself under a microscope, you won't be able to reach high enough to get that shadow off the wall.
February 24 at 1:02am

RT@RogerEbert: "The most aggressively inarticulate generation."
February 24 at 1:30am

How can you expect people to take care of themselves? No one ever takes care of things they get for free.
February 26 at 3:11pm

There is too much on the internet!! I'm reading too much on the internet!! This thing is a magic machine!!
February 27 at 12:40pm

blood mudballs are a messy playground
February 28 at 5:16pm

blur the measurement scales with blood
March 1 at 7:10am

The failures of the past are the seasonings on the victories of the future.
March 1 at 12:49pm

a conch for all horses, a drum for every muscle
March 1 at 4:10pm

All my words have forked my tongue.
March 1 at 8:07pm

via Roger Ebert's Twitter, Grenade Ping-Pong:
March 1 at 8:30pm

Six Organs of Admittance "Anesthesia" Music Video
Music video from LP/CD "Luminous Night". Directed by Cam Archer. (c)2009 Drag City Inc.
March 2 at 7:58am

They slept on beds of ashes and fur, and neither dug the dirt nor pursued the living, but ate what they came across. They only came to town to urinate and fire for them was synonymous with sound. Some thought them prophets. They smiled often and were so carefree that we felt shamed in our own lives. We hung them from trees. We no longer sleep well.
March 2 at 10:18am

title says it all:
March 2 at 6:20pm

bonnie prince billy - goodbye old stepstone
from kcmp, playing bascom lamar lunsford's song "goodbye dear old stepstone"
March 2 at 8:08pm

born into a prearranged marriage with the self
March 5 at 9:41am

Sitting outside, drinking tea, reading, watching a couple play with their child in the grass. So perfect, no sirens, wars, or concrete.
March 5 at 1:32pm

Don't have two things on the mind when you can only do one thing at a time.
March 6 at 8:52am

Goodbye Mark Linkous, hope the horses are more sparkly where you are now.
March 7 at 4:14pm

"... khaki makes the most invisible outfit for the future, a covert skin for battling atop the dead, colorless planet."

CABINET // Colors / Khaki
Cabinet Magazine a quarterly of Art and Culture
March 7 at 4:43pm

They make no sense, they're like human spam mail.
March 7 at 6:38pm

The Singer-Songwriter Known as Sparklehorse is Dead at 47 - ArtsBeat Blog -
Mark Linkous, a singer-songwriter whose music, released under the name Sparklehorse, was renowned in the indie-rock and alt-country worlds for its dark, allusive themes and fragile beauty, committed suicide on Saturday in Knoxville, Tenn
March 7 at 10:21pm

By starting off each day with an ambient noise record playing loudly through headphones, I've found a softer approach to life.
March 8 at 10:28am

Fennesz & David Sylvian - Transit
March 8 at 11:14am

Caring is equal to genius, because it defies what you are told to do, so if you care for what you do, you should allow yourself time, because it may be important.
March 9 at 12:32am

I usually don't encourage this type of retardation, but I just ate a twizzler:
March 9 at 4:03pm

Walking is a blind man's dance.
March 14 at 11:33pm

I was born in a time when phones were on cords, we could lay on the earth and feel at one with the sun. It was all voices.
March 15 at 3:25am

Burrrrff and gurgle gurgle went the voolcano, and digga digga digga went the people away.
March 15 at 4:21pm

Shave your armpit hair in the form of starfishes. Women shave your integral hair into the form of my face.
March 15 at 11:15pm

The good can laugh, the bad take pride in their laughter.
March 16 at 6:28am

Can't stop listening to it!

Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti - Round and Round
The first single off of the forthcoming Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti LP out on 4AD.
March 16 at 7:26am

It's like when your house burns down, you just don't want it to happen, but than again, not everything can be like receiving a free ice cream cone.
March 18 at 10:09am

Make a child in a room, pay for it when it leaves your womb.
March 19 at 4:28pm

Thought I saw a midget. It was just a cat with a large shadow.
March 20 at 3:07pm

multiple windows + youtube = sound collages
March 20 at 3:41pm

You're never alone if you have a mirror.
March 21 at 9:35am

Light is always an emission.
March 21 at 8:55pm

What is being gotten:

For Consumers, Some Clarity on Health Care Changes -
The uninsured are the biggest beneficiaries of the bill, which would extend coverage for low-income Americans.
March 22 at 1:23am

When it's past 4 am and you've been sipping away at booze all night, and you're drawing a picture of a wolf that's pregnant with a piglet, you just kind of accept you are who you are and achieve total peace.
March 22 at 4:30am

ejaculating skull says I am pregnant with the ghost of the past
March 24 at 3:03am

When you're unemployed, you never have a day off.
March 24 at 11:32am

COME TO A SHOW: Chris Paddock, Liz Isenberg, Vio/Mire, TONIGHT!! 3/25, 1339 Elizabeth Ave #1 89119 8pmish
March 25 at 4:53pm

COME TO A SHOW: Kevin Greenspon, Mother McKenzie - TONIGHT 3/27, 8pm - 1339 Elizabeth Ave #1 89119
March 27 at 1:07pm

Some books, man, will mess you up.
March 28 at 7:28pm

Don't even like the sound of the words 'a gallon of juice'.
March 29 at 8:19pm

A scarecrow never has a mustache.
March 30 at 10:36am

Shut your physical eyes and use the 10,000 eyes within.
March 30 at 9:58pm

This wind will take the dirt off the dead.
March 31 at 1:17pm

Weathers are the emotions of the earth.
March 31 at 9:00pm

Movie is about a murderous disembodied penis, so should be good. Just a kick back good time.

Movie - One Eyed Monster
Thursday, April 8, 2010 at 6:30pm
1339 Elizabeth Ave #1 (front house)
March 31 at 9:32pm

The secretion of time on the body is the only tombstone.
April 1 at 3:17am

I can't stop checking up on these owls!!! :
Live Owl Nest Box Cam
Barn Owls Online- Live Owl Nest Cam With Owlets.
April 1 at 3:08pm

Gardeners are dentists of the earth.
April 3 at 8:33am

Bubble prisms are nature's true genius.
April 4 at 1:07pm

Awnry dog getting his damn feet wet:

Look how dat boy mind me!
Lonnie shows how well his dog "behaves."
April 5 at 6:33am

Point at yourself in the mirror and see your greatest enemy.
April 5 at 7:46am

Dedicate your life to fucking who you are.
April 5 at 4:54pm

Good ol' NY Times Magazine:

NY Times Magazine - The New York Times
The author, Christian leader, founder of the Prison Fellowship and convicted felon in the Nixon White House scandals lives and works in a 3,000-square-foot house in a gated community in North Naples, Fla.
April 5 at 9:43pm

Well here's the answer to everything, a giant floating eye:

Helix Nebula - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
The Helix Nebula, also known as The Helix or NGC 7293, is a large planetary nebula (PN) located in the constellation of Aquarius. Discovered by Karl Ludwig Harding, probably before 1824, this object is ...
April 5 at 10:02pm

Paralyzing perception of parallels
April 6 at 2:42am

The wolf is ascending, it's time to interpret the gold.
April 6 at 1:03pm

Italian food looks gory due to Catholic influence.
April 7 at 7:16am

After sitting in silence for hours reading, Beach House is a good way to be reintroduced to sound.
April 9 at 3:52pm

See with my words what I hear with my eyes.
April 10 at 11:34am

My Top 5 Favorite Books
Geoff picked 5 from My Top 5 Favorite Books :
2:Gravity's Rainbow (Penguin Classics Deluxe Edition)
3:Blood Meridian: Or the Evening Redness in the West
4:The Amalgamation Polka
5:Pale Fire
See More
April 13 at 10:37pm

Sipping silence till it gives my shadow weight
April 16 at 1:37pm

Bones take time, are the pearls of the body
April 17 at 4:07am

If I ever get married, I'm gonna let my wife keep her last name so it doesn't look like I married my sister.
April 17 at 6:08pm

Spacemen 3 evening:
April 17 at 8:15pm

The sun is always setting setting setting up my moods.
April 18 at 12:12am

Only spend time with those who allow you to be childlike.
April 18 at 3:51am

Stay nude within
April 18 at 1:45pm

Giving up your imagination is like the castration of infinite dragons.
April 19 at 7:04am

You have to be a bit selfish if you want to do any good in this world.
April 19 at 2:46pm

I never met an orgasm I didn't like.
April 20 at 12:05am

If there is one thing PacMan taught me, it is that you have to pursue and settle up with your ghosts.
April 20 at 7:33am

April 21 at 9:15am · Comment · Like

Sarah Christina Sherman So YOU'RE the one calling on this wind.
April 21 at 9:19am

Geoff Johnson It's not me. I call it out of love, but it keeps blowing me off. waa waa
April 21 at 9:22am

"All this stuff I'm already familiar with is really interesting."
April 22 at 10:36pm

Life is like being on an ocean alone with fish that never blink.
April 24 at 4:50pm

Blood is the bearer of bad news.
April 25 at 4:59pm

Kelsy Star Unless you had unprotected sex and don't want to be pregnant. Then it's good news.
April 25 at 6:58pm

Geoff Johnson There is never better news after a orgasm.
April 25 at 11:42pm

A lover is a flesh mirror.
April 25 at 11:51pm

Amy Woodward A mirror is a glass lover?
April 26 at 12:52am

Geoff Johnson The past is glass we love. True love is a parallel carrousel.
April 26 at 6:56am

Sarah Christina Sherman Oooh I love that; "parallel carousel."
April 26 at 7:08am

Karin Miller We only really love ourselves because we're narcissist? I think I believe that.
April 26 at 9:09am

Geoff Johnson We're narcissists cause masturbation feels good.
April 26 at 9:11am

This sudden fascination with something I never thought twice about before, when I'm not putting unhealthy importance on a spontaneous trivial task, is keeping me from my school work.
April 26 at 11:56am

My friend Jesse making a critical observation:

i trashed my house
you don't want to know I did it I trashed my house
April 26 at 12:06pm

I know it sounds like a colonoscopy, but really it's really just me sucking on a juice box.
April 27 at 12:53am

You think that's how you feel
April 28 at 8:59pm

Silence is the fresh air under the overwhelming smoke of sound.
April 29 at 1:36am

The wind just keeps on hitting that old barn.
April 29 at 10:18am

Put light under water and discover form.
April 30 at 1:32pm

Born into a prearranged marriage with the self.
April 30 at 11:48pm

Earth mother, Earth murder
May 1 at 4:48pm

I don't know what kind of girl is my ideal, maybe I should get one with multiple personalities.
May 2 at 1:18pm

Earth juice keeps me clean and the heat in the skin.
May 3 at 3:55pm

Don't let the sands of time become the mud of memory.
May 4 at 6:57pm

If you don't actively try to create a better world, you'll be forced to maintain a decrepit one.
May 5 at 10:05am

Douglas Williams fuck it.
May 5 at 10:07am

Geoff Johnson Fuck the past and impregnate the future.
May 5 at 10:09am

Sarah-Ruth Tasko Fuck the past and impregnate the future - are these your words? If so you are fucking brilliant.
May 5 at 10:15am

Geoff Johnson I just had 3 cups of coffee. I can do anything for the next 1-2 hours.
May 5 at 10:17am

News I could have lived without:

BBC - Earth News - Sloths' bizarre 'toilet habit' recorded in Amazon, Peru
The extraordinary behaviour, recorded on at least 25 occasions in the Amazon rainforest of Peru, has stumped the biologists who witnessed it.
May 5 at 10:59am

out in the streets roam convalescent youth, barking at doors, entering rooms with harnesses, I saw them without fire and nude, I keep my door locked, even in the afternoon
May 6 at 7:15am thanks Christina Johns

YTMND - Breakup Letter, Dramatic reading
May 7 at 12:32pm

I ooooooze charm.
May 8 at 7:19pm

Not much difference between fog and ghosts.
May 9 at 10:32am

Nicole Wentworth but fog can't hiss at you and wont make you speak in tongues?
May 9 at 10:10pm

Geoff Johnson Pentecostal poltergeists won't push you through the deep seeded mysteries as a good fog will though. Dense hesitation is key to both experiences. eh? maybe not worth contemplating.
May 9 at 10:22pm

Nicole Wentworth ha no I love it... but this better be some thick fog, in the forest, alone, with a high dose of paranoia
May 9 at 10:28pm

Geoff Johnson haha, the thickest paranoia of fog I ever opened my eyes upon for sure.
May 9 a

No cruel earth in my universe
May 9 at 4:26pm

Dead hooker is a oxymoron.
May 9 at 10:25pm

Geoff Johnson I would say it's one thing on top of the same thing in a different skin.
May 9 at 10:51pm

You can give up, but don't give in.
May 11 at 10:33am

Pamela Dylag i think lira is going to see me before you...
May 10 at 12:41pm · Comment · Like · See Wall-to-Wall

Geoff Johnson Clouds gather on my day.
May 10 at 12:47pm

Geoff Johnson Not that I don't like seeing that girl, but you should hop on her trolly. not in a weird way
May 10 at 12:51pm

You can give up, but don't give in.
May 11 at 10:33am

Everywhere I go, I need more. I get tired and need more. It is too much and not enough. I need it simpler, and much more.
May 12 at 11:02pm

Teach it, it will die:,17165/

Scientists Successfully Teach Gorilla It Will Die Someday
Tulane University researchers say Quigley is now able to experience the crippling fear of impending death previously only accessible to humans.
May 16 at 8:08am

The heart is the penis of the soul.
May 16 at 9:05am

no offensive ketchup bottle sounds before 5 p.m. please
May 18 at 3:01pm

FREE PUSSIES.........CATS!! Get in on em before they starve and die or are given away to others and you are left to cry! These fur-beasts are quadrupeds and will MATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!!! Adorable for cuddling as well. These things need to live somewhere. With you? Why not?!

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By:Erin McNamara
May 21 at 2:42pm

This vast despair and disgust for how people act and treat each other really hinders my ability to make friends.
May 22 at 11:08am


I may be the friend that teased you the most about that damned respirator whispering, "Gloria". It's strange to think of that now and of the times I told you to throw it in a shopping cart and come see me (totally out of line, I know!). Glad you had a sense of humor.

So many things will remind me of you. Your orange striped shirt, how you did the best "Drive" kareoke, your famous impressions, and I think almost every time I took a CAT bus it was to see you. Love you love you tons.